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Blog - Nove 09-2009 What Has Been The Biggest ?
« Thread Started on Jul 17, 2010, 1:16pm »
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Monday, November 09, 2009
Q. & A. From Fans - What has been the biggest set-back to your career?
What has been the biggest set-back to your career?
Question: What has been the biggest set-back to your career?
Answer: I don't mean to be sexest when I answer this, but the truth of the matter is two things: 1. men, and 2. the jealousy of others (men and women).
I wrote about this in my discography, and I meant it when I said that when I got rid of men and relationships with men, my career started to go somewhere. I simply can't comprehend why the two can't go hand in hand. It's absurd to my intelligence; utterly illogical to say the least, especially if the man is a Musician himself. You would think that you would be more compatible and better suited, but I have found that the ego of men and all of their insecurities etc., really degenerated not just my music, but my Self also. I have even had men throw my instruments out onto the street on Garbage Day when I was still sleeping! I've had boyfriends disallow a piano in the house, treating me like God put me on earth to just be their fuck-toy, maid, cook, blah, blah, blah!
There's so many examples I could give you, it's endless and pitiful what abuses women in music suffer, and I my Self simply will not suffer it anymore. Hello, its 2010! Is this thing on? Like, when a guy says to you, "What the hell do you need a cut-away body for? Who do you think you are? Princess Diana? You don't need all those notes up there anyways!" Start running you fucking asshole, because I'm seeing red all over you, you know! Meanwhile, he's sitting right there in front of you with a cut-away body guitar playing all the notes up there!
There is no doubt that what impacted my career the very most and put it on the shelf for 20 years was getting pregnant, being abandoned by Mr. Wonderful, and then having to do the right thing and become a single parent. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids, and I've got two great boys here. But single parenthood and a music career do not mix, and something has to be sacrificed. So, I did my time. I've done my duty. And I did the best job I could with what I had. And believe me, for most of it, I didn't have much to say the least.
As for the jealousy part, I don't know what to say to the utter assasine treatment I've received over the years because of my piano playing. Sometimes it has gotten so bad that I was convinced that my music must be evil to make people behave so badly for having heard it. I don't know why, I don't know what it is, but my music has a profound impact upon people deep, deep inside. I've had people explode into tears while I'm performing, and its very unnerving. Sometimes I've had to put people underneath the piano and play over top of them while they cried they're heads off. Other people have the opposite reaction.
For example, a few years back after I first moved in here from out West, I was playing the piano at our local Community Centre, and this one woman became utterly obsessed with me and my music. Meanwhile, I had no clue that this woman was a whack job ex-junkie. She got me this used piano with much ado, and the night before it was delivered, I went to see it and it was perfectly fine. I was so excited and couldn't sleep all night waiting for it to arrive. When it finally arrived, 22 keys were busted, the pedals had been bashed to pieces with someone's boots or shoes, the entire one side of the body was ripped right off and hanging at the top, the tops of the keys were ripped off and sitting on top of the wooden bases, and someone 'keyed' the whole thing like a car, leaving gouges and cuts and scraps all over the thing. It would have cost me a fortune to repair any of it. Finally we got the thing out into the backyard and the boys and all their friends had a "Piano Smashing Ceremony". For the next seven months, we took the piano out into the garbage one piece at a time. I would never have been able to pay for that thing to be carted off to the dump. See what I mean? Jealousy is a green-eyed monster and it ruins and destroys everything that is beautiful.
Now, much to my astonishment, they're jealous of my guitar playing! What's next? My dog, my kids, my studio, my hair, I'm tall, I'm thin, I look really good for my age, ...but you know, I worked for it. I worked really hard for all of these things that most people just take for granted. I took care of my Self better than some I guess, and now they suffer those regrets. Well, its never too late to start taking better care of your Self.
You know what encouraged me to re-learn guitar and do it anyways? Not the people who crowed up my ass that I was too old, looked stupid, and was making a fool out of my Self! Not at all! If anything, that made me want to do it all the more just so that I could shove it right back in they're face.
What inspired me to follow my dream was that when I was a kid, my Mother had a student who was 80 years old. She started learning piano at the age of 80 because this was a dream she wanted to fulfill before she died. She died at the age of 86 with her Grade 8 Piano Certificate from The Royal Conservatory of Music in her hands. If that's not inspiring then I don't know what is. If she could do it, then so can I. I'm not 80, I'm 46. As of this August I'll have been playing guitar again for three years. I started again in 2007. And now I am living my dream. I am playing guitar the way I did over twenty years ago and even better. I'm playing the way I always dreamed of playing. And all I can do is keep working, keep playing, keep practicing, and keep learning, and get better and better as each year goes by. I do enjoy and love it so very much. I'm not giving it up for anybody!
Love and hugs...BlackieSteele...xoxox
(Fan question from 2007-2008)
« Thread Started on Jul 17, 2010, 1:16pm »
From MySpace
Monday, November 09, 2009
Q. & A. From Fans - What has been the biggest set-back to your career?
What has been the biggest set-back to your career?
Question: What has been the biggest set-back to your career?
Answer: I don't mean to be sexest when I answer this, but the truth of the matter is two things: 1. men, and 2. the jealousy of others (men and women).
I wrote about this in my discography, and I meant it when I said that when I got rid of men and relationships with men, my career started to go somewhere. I simply can't comprehend why the two can't go hand in hand. It's absurd to my intelligence; utterly illogical to say the least, especially if the man is a Musician himself. You would think that you would be more compatible and better suited, but I have found that the ego of men and all of their insecurities etc., really degenerated not just my music, but my Self also. I have even had men throw my instruments out onto the street on Garbage Day when I was still sleeping! I've had boyfriends disallow a piano in the house, treating me like God put me on earth to just be their fuck-toy, maid, cook, blah, blah, blah!
There's so many examples I could give you, it's endless and pitiful what abuses women in music suffer, and I my Self simply will not suffer it anymore. Hello, its 2010! Is this thing on? Like, when a guy says to you, "What the hell do you need a cut-away body for? Who do you think you are? Princess Diana? You don't need all those notes up there anyways!" Start running you fucking asshole, because I'm seeing red all over you, you know! Meanwhile, he's sitting right there in front of you with a cut-away body guitar playing all the notes up there!
There is no doubt that what impacted my career the very most and put it on the shelf for 20 years was getting pregnant, being abandoned by Mr. Wonderful, and then having to do the right thing and become a single parent. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids, and I've got two great boys here. But single parenthood and a music career do not mix, and something has to be sacrificed. So, I did my time. I've done my duty. And I did the best job I could with what I had. And believe me, for most of it, I didn't have much to say the least.
As for the jealousy part, I don't know what to say to the utter assasine treatment I've received over the years because of my piano playing. Sometimes it has gotten so bad that I was convinced that my music must be evil to make people behave so badly for having heard it. I don't know why, I don't know what it is, but my music has a profound impact upon people deep, deep inside. I've had people explode into tears while I'm performing, and its very unnerving. Sometimes I've had to put people underneath the piano and play over top of them while they cried they're heads off. Other people have the opposite reaction.
For example, a few years back after I first moved in here from out West, I was playing the piano at our local Community Centre, and this one woman became utterly obsessed with me and my music. Meanwhile, I had no clue that this woman was a whack job ex-junkie. She got me this used piano with much ado, and the night before it was delivered, I went to see it and it was perfectly fine. I was so excited and couldn't sleep all night waiting for it to arrive. When it finally arrived, 22 keys were busted, the pedals had been bashed to pieces with someone's boots or shoes, the entire one side of the body was ripped right off and hanging at the top, the tops of the keys were ripped off and sitting on top of the wooden bases, and someone 'keyed' the whole thing like a car, leaving gouges and cuts and scraps all over the thing. It would have cost me a fortune to repair any of it. Finally we got the thing out into the backyard and the boys and all their friends had a "Piano Smashing Ceremony". For the next seven months, we took the piano out into the garbage one piece at a time. I would never have been able to pay for that thing to be carted off to the dump. See what I mean? Jealousy is a green-eyed monster and it ruins and destroys everything that is beautiful.
Now, much to my astonishment, they're jealous of my guitar playing! What's next? My dog, my kids, my studio, my hair, I'm tall, I'm thin, I look really good for my age, ...but you know, I worked for it. I worked really hard for all of these things that most people just take for granted. I took care of my Self better than some I guess, and now they suffer those regrets. Well, its never too late to start taking better care of your Self.
You know what encouraged me to re-learn guitar and do it anyways? Not the people who crowed up my ass that I was too old, looked stupid, and was making a fool out of my Self! Not at all! If anything, that made me want to do it all the more just so that I could shove it right back in they're face.
What inspired me to follow my dream was that when I was a kid, my Mother had a student who was 80 years old. She started learning piano at the age of 80 because this was a dream she wanted to fulfill before she died. She died at the age of 86 with her Grade 8 Piano Certificate from The Royal Conservatory of Music in her hands. If that's not inspiring then I don't know what is. If she could do it, then so can I. I'm not 80, I'm 46. As of this August I'll have been playing guitar again for three years. I started again in 2007. And now I am living my dream. I am playing guitar the way I did over twenty years ago and even better. I'm playing the way I always dreamed of playing. And all I can do is keep working, keep playing, keep practicing, and keep learning, and get better and better as each year goes by. I do enjoy and love it so very much. I'm not giving it up for anybody!
Love and hugs...BlackieSteele...xoxox
(Fan question from 2007-2008)